Tuesday

Dear Diary,

💕 So i called last night before bed and She talked me through another orgasm. Different this time. When i told Her i was about to cum She told me to wait. To hold it. Then She just talked to me for a while. The She told me to start again. When i told Her i was about to cub She did it again! After a bit She told me to start again. It was kind of like edging but different. 

Finally this to like when i told Her i was about to cum She said okay Babydoll and did Her countdown thing then told me to cum for Her. 

i wanted to just fall asleep but She told me i hadn't thanked her yet. So i did. Then She told me to lick my fingers clean and while i was doing it She said it all belonged to Her and was so proud of me. 

:-)

I looked it up and the June birthstone is Pearl or Alexandrite. Hmm... :-)

Oh, She told me She was teasing me about sending me to a trading camp this summer but she had heard of a M/s Bed and Breakfast that sounded fun!

The morning ritual of texting Her then edging is becoming automatic. And the edging feels different now. i mean mentally not physically. Knowing its part of Her orgasm control program makes it seem different. 

Got home. Panties off. Also automatic now. i don't even go into bedroom. Just step in the door and take them off. 

Texted Mistress and she immediately texted back "Love you Babydoll.

<swoon>

Then she called and we talked. She said all the reading and learning i was doing was great, more than She expected. But She said to slow down. i was just a baby and a lot of the stuff i was learning was WAY beyond me. 

She said She could tell i was hungry for more structure and she had some ideas She would talk with me about Saturday. She also said to insert the Ben Wa balls before i leave home and bring the rope i had been tying my wrists with at night. She wanted to check something. Also bring any extra. 

Homework:

"Be prepared to share these fears with your prospective Owner in a candid fashion and to think of ways to allay them."

lol i had already thought of that!

There will be a phone call tonight. 

Not feeling chatty right now. i will try to write more later. 

t