Well, She does read my Diary. She called about 8pm and She was PISSED OFF.
i haven't seen (or heard) Her that upset. She said She almost came over when She read it but the only thing that stopped Her was She had never been here and didn't want to try and find it in the dark! Lol (Sorry Mistress but it is funny!)
Anyway She calmed down by calling me and chewing me out. :-)
It actually felt kinda good because it's because She cared and was worried about me. i have never enjoyed being lectured so much. :-)
Anyway She said there would be changes in my Rules and Task and She would tell me when i got there.
From Erotic Slavehood:
"Exercise: In your slave journal, write a list of your fears regarding a live-in relationship."
So...
i am afraid i will invest so much emotionally and be dumped.
i am afraid it will threaten by job and my ability to ever get a teaching job again.
i am afraid of trying to be what She wants and failing.
i am afraid of exposing my heart and getting it crushed.
i am afraid... Just afraid. It's so different than my life has been. And so suddenly.
Ok, i will have to redo this. i just broke down crying again.
i need my Mistress.
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