Showed up at Miss B's and knocked on the door. She let me in and kissed me then Walked to her chair.
Undressed, turned my phone off (remembered this time) put my clothes in the closet then walked to Her chair and sat on the floor in front of Her.
"Good Girl" and asked me how i felt.
Good but still a little confused and... Humbled? Explained that in talking to Miss Kitty i realized i still wasn't opening up totally.
She said very good. i was learning. How was my butt?
Hurts some
It's a reminder She said.
Then She said we weren't going to do anything intense like that today. She really wanted to give me a pleasure spanking so i knew the difference. But She said She was really worried about sub frenzy. We had done so much in less than two weeks and i was so new. She just wanted to take advantage of their time off.
We talked a little about what sub drop was and what it was. i agreed i was at danger for that.
Did i really understand that last night was the end? That She chose a punishment appropriate for it so now it's done?
i said yes but She said She doubted i really did but would in time.
She asked me to come sit on her lap. We kissed and cuddled a while.
"Here baby, put this in your mouth" she said. It's an adult pacifier. I just want to see what you think and how you feel about.
i let her put it in my mouth. We cuddled mor and she just talked about how good it was to be in a D/s relationship again and how much she liked me and how proud of me she was for how far i had come so quickly.
*swoon*
After a while she asked how i felt about the pacifier. Not really much one way or another. Me neither She said and took it out and kissed me again.
Then She said She wanted me to go make us some lunch. There was bread and deli meats and cheese as well as condiments in the kitchen. She wanted a roast beef sandwich on light rye with mustard with a pickle and chips and diet coke. Did i get that?
Yes Mam.
i scurried off to the kitchen. It took me a little longer than i liked but found everything. i made Her lunch and found a service tray this time and channeling my inner waitress (lol) i brought her lunch to her.
She said thank you baby doll then asked me how it felt making Her lunch for Her. i told her i enjoyed it. Was i just being nice? No Mam. i really liked making it for Her. She said good. She really liked it too. She asked if i had a favorite recipe. Roasted tomato soup with basil. She asked if i had plans next weekend. No. Good. She wanted me to make it for Her next Saturday evening. Bring the ingredients list and any spices and we would go shopping together.
i thought how exciting is that! Making my favorite recipe for Her! Warm fuzzies.
She told me to go make myself lunch. i did and brought it back and kneeled next to the lamp table to eat.
We talked and are then i took the plates back into the kitchen and hand washed everything. i was so used to it anyway. Living alone it would take a week to get enough dishes for a load. But i kind of enjoyed doing it for Her. Odd. i wonder if that came with submission. (Later i asked Her and She said very often).
i came back out and asked if she wanted anything else. She said you edged this morning right. Yes Mam. Did you check every hour you were wet? Yes Mam. I was setting the timer on my iPhone to make sure but since it's off i may have missed the last hour but assured her i was. Show me. i immediately put two fingers in my pussy getting them wet and held them for her to see. She said very good and i licked them clean without hardly thinking about it.
Editor note: reading that is really hot!
Good Girl! She said to come sit in her lap again.
i did and we started kissing and She said she was very happy with me and was i happy. Very. She stopped a minute and asked how happy? it's a little unsure what she meant so i just said as happy as i could remember.
Ok, this is the part i've been trying to hide till now lol
She looked at me and said She would like to take a tiny step forward and call me her provisional sub. Still a long way to go and no contract yet but She wanted to think and let everyone else know i was Hers.
What did i think?
i cried
She kissed me and held me and rocked me and finally asked is that was a yes.
i laughed and swatted Her and said of course.
Then She said the fun parts was there would be a provisional collar we could shop for together. Did i want to go to the pet store and get a pet collar and leash. Or did i want to get a day collar and leash?
i started to answer but she stopped me and said just think about it. That was one of the best parts.
Ok, so i might have overly romanticized that by i am in sub-love and it's hard to think of anything that would make me happier.
She said she was going to make a few changes to the rules but She would let me know tomorrow.
She said there would be more task. Mainly online research and she would expect more from me but less big things. She wanted us to get into a more natural rhythm. The next big big thing would be my pleasure spanking. Maybe next weekend.
She said she saw my New Years Maybe Resolution list. She liked it and wanted me to expand it. She told me to keep requesting help on it. Try to stretch my boundaries.
She said she saw a couple tweets complimenting my behavior. Good Girl. That made her proud.
She said she saw all the CMnf pictures and rope bondage pictures. She wanted me to continue posting things i liked or was interested in. Once again try to expand my boundaries.
She liked my morning coffee pictured. She looked forward to me making Her morning coffee. ME TOO!!!
She asked me my thoughts on the first section of Miss Abernathy's book (Erotic Slavehood). i said i read it but honest was confusing to me. She said She expected it would be. Hold my questions until i read the next section then go back and read it again and we would talk about it.
And keep reading and doing the work. That's an order. Not a suggestion.
Yes Mam. (Those words were getting very comfortable on my lips. :-)
Oh. She said she was happy i finally figured out it was not my place to understand everything. i needed to trust Her. Yes that was the other piece why She kept embarrassing me.
She said She would do it in the future. It was a good tool for me. It was easy, didn't cause harm and helped push my boundaries in addition to wherever She was using it for.
She said She planned to have the modified BDSM checklist for me tomorrow.
These are not in order anymore. i'm just trying to remember everything.
She said to do an online search for Breath Meditation. Once I was comfortable with that we would move on.
Was i carrying the rope with me? Sleeping with it? Yes Mam. i had forgot it twice in the morning when i went for coffee. Should i go back for it?
No. Just don't forget it. She grinned. Point made.
What did i think of it. i told her i didn't know how to describe it but it did have an attraction. She said she knew I was a natural rope slut and smiled. No assignment but look up knots and pictures of Shibari rope bondage just look at how beautiful it was. If i wanted to try tying some decorative knots. Just get used to the feel of rope.
Was ifinished with my spreadsheet task list? No, and i want to change it to two pages. One for ongoing and one for defined projects. Also wanted to see if i could get online shared so She could see it too
Good Girl! Smile
i'm sure we talked about other thing. Just can't remember.
THEN She put one arm around me and took one breast in Her hand. She reached the other hand around and started to play with my labia!!!
i'm going to skip the porno here and just say She fingered me off to a mind blowing orgasmed. i usually cum pretty fast and i do multiple orgasms well but don't usually cum hard. Well i came hard this time. I honestly thought I was going to pass out.
Now that i think of it, i wonder if all the edging has something to do with it?
Anyway, she brought her hand to my mouth and i automatically cleaned Her fingers and hand of my cum.
Ok, this is hot even for me.
Then She told me to clean up. i started to stand up and She said no. Use your fingers.
Figuring out what She meant I lick my fingers wet and rubbed my skin clean of my cum. i was used to the taste by now but the thought of what this had to be doing to Her was the greatest turn on ever. :-)
Ok i'm cutting this short. We just sat together and read (separate books) most of the afternoon b
She told me i could start calling her Mistress instead of Miss B (which felt odd to me anyway)
And to change my profile.
I will write more later.
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