Lunch <3

Dear Diary,

i don't know what love with another woman feels like and i know you can't fall in love in a week so i'm going to make up my own word: sub-love. i know i have powerful emotions for Miss B and no word for it other than love. So i'me going to call it sub-love and i got it bad. 

i talked to Tangled Kitten this morning. i feel so sorry for her and her situation with her Daddy. 

i  just realized. i'm supposed to write this Diary like no one is ever going to read it but people ARE reading it so i have to be careful not to say something sharing their private stuff. 

So the paragraph about Tangled Kitten has been edited. 

i've come to the conclusion i will never figure out why Miss B continues to embarrass me and quite honestly i don't need to. "mine is not to question why, mine is just to try and try."  No idea where that comes from but it applies. If i need to know i just have to trust her to tell me. 

There is a lot of comfort in that. 

i also talked to Tangled Kitten about how she felt I was doing. i have no reference point as submission goes. She was right. It doesn't matter what she thinks, it's what Miss B thinks. She seems pleased but i need to remember to ask for more specific feedback. 

i'm having trouble keeping track of all my orders and tasks. i need to come up with a task list or something. 

EDIT: We talked about this at lunch and She said to do this today. Guess what i'm working on next? Lol

So I showed up at lunch. i didn't know if i was supposed to go in or wait like last time so i texted her. She said to make sure i was wet first then come in. 

Side note: I'm doing better but the lower case i but at the start of sentences it is killing me. i missed three in the last paragraph. 

So once that was done i went in. A little Mexican food restaurant in Old Towne called Fuzzy's. No idea why a Mexican cafe would be called Fuzzy's lol. 

i found Miss B instantly. Did i mention i was in sub-love? Lol. She was in the back corner. The place was noisy but that area wasn't very crowded. She stood up and we hugged. i really wanted to either kiss her or kneel down next to here. Neither were apparent in a busy cafe! Lol

She said to relax. This was just lunch. And it was. You went to the cashier to order so She told me to stay at the table and asked me what i would like. i asked for a burrito with shredded beef and green chili and an order of chips and guacamole. She ended up with some tacos of some sort. 

When She came back to the table she handed me the glasses and told me she wanted ice tea and pointed to the soda fountain. So i went to get hers and a diet coke for me. She said we were casual but never to drink before she did or start eating before her. 

But that was it for any D/s stuff until the very end. We talked about school some. She said that it would be trying for us and she wanted me over one more time before then (i hope my grin didn't look too stupid).

Then She said She didn't want to talk about school anymore. It would be here soon enough. 

So we talked about nothing really for the rest of lunch. And it was wonderful. 

After we were done eating and had talked for about two hours she said well it's almost time to leave. Then She told me to go into the bathroom and edge for her. 

i looked a her for a second then said to myself "mine is not to question why" and walked to the bathroom. i was as scared as shit. i had to stop once when someone came in but fortunately they didn't come into the stalls. 

It took me almost 15 minutes then i came back out. Miss B had a big smile on her face and said "Good Girl" and patted my hand. i remembered to thank Her which made her smile. 

"Ready to go?" She asked. i asked if i could as a favor. She said yes so i asked Her if she could give me more direct feedback on how I was doing because i really had no idea. She literally threw her head back in laughter. She said "Baby doll, you are exceeding all of my expectations. you are a joy to me" and gave me a big smile to which I blushed again. 

So yeah. i guess i am doing ok :-)

t