Miss M said no secrets. I had to include everything in my Diary. So, as best i remember...
She asked me how much of the book she gave me I had read. (Erotic Slavehood by Miss Abernathy). I admitted not much. She said that was ok but the sooner I read it the sooner we could talk about it.
I told her I had read The Marketplace by Laura Antoniou. She smiled and said forget anything I read. Fun read but totally unrealistic.
I admitted I had read all three 50 Shades of Grey books but quickly added they were really romance books. She laughed and said they were bad romance books.
I told her I had read of stuff on submissiveguide.com and random sites on the net. She nodded
Then she asked me why I thought I was submissive. I didn't have a good answer other than I liked to make people happy to please them. It was important to me.
She said ok but there were other reasons she could see and she would teach me to put words to them.
She said switch tract. Did I like boys or girls?
I explained I had always liked boys but been curious about girls. Did I find her attractive? I went beet red and said yes she was the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. That may or may not have been true two weeks ago but I completely believe it now. She said good because she WOULD have me soon.
That made me wet. er. Wetter :-)
Then she asked me if I still liked guys. I hesitated and said yes Mamm. She had been following my tweets obviously because she asked if I liked sucking cock. I said yes, very much. She said "yes Mamm, very much. " Lesson learned.
She said you think you are good at it don't you. I said yes Mamm. She said good she would make sure I had plenty of opportunity.
She said she saw a lot of blindfold and rope bondage in my tweets. What's up with that? I said I thing it means I need to give control to someone else. She said very good, that was true. What else? I had no answer. She explained I couldn't let myself go so I had to be bound and the blindfold was so I couldn't see it and pretend it wasn't happening.
That was a duh moment for me and I admit I wasn't paying as close attention to the rest as I should have.
Did I like spankings. I don't know. Had I ever been spanked. No. What did I think oh floggers whips canes and such. They scare me. Why. They hurt. How do I know. I don't. If they hurt why do people like them. I don't know. If people like them and they cause pain is pain automatically bad. I was silent.
Why was I afraid of pain. I don't understand the question. Had I ever experienced any pain that was good?
Well that did it. I set back in my seat and she could tell I was think so she was quiet. (As a side note she was unbelievably sexy at that moment).
I told her about my clover nipple clamps. How they hurt but I liked enduring it and when they came off there was a rush or flood of something through my body that was magical. She smiled and said remember that feeling.
Then she went on. I can't remember everything but did I like house cleaning. Not really but I did it. I hired a cleaner once a month. Did I like cooking. I love cooking. Did I like driving. Had I ever worked as a waitress had I ever been in an orgy (no) had I ever been in a threesome (once in college and it was a disaster) did I use dildos (not usually) magic wands (what?)anyone use dildos on me (no) butt plugs (no) what did I think about them (curious).
She paused and said I'll modify a BDSM checklist for you.
Then she ask oh, what about a little hooks? She'd seen a lot of those. They scare me but I'm intrigued. She smiled.
She said you really are such a baby aren't you?
Then she put her arms out and just held me. She whispered I want you.
Ok there was more but I can't remember and that is a great place to stop.
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